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| An edited picture of myself |
Today
again my life has started to write a new chapter about me, turning me
23rd age at 27th
October 2012. However, up to my turned new age I believe, life has
given me a lot experience & a better understanding of this
society where I'm living since my birth. I'm also somehow enjoying my
life through the “so called” fundamental freedom & the rights
linked to it according to my capability & capacity despite huge
barriers. In the past days my life’s vision made me clear that it’s
not only the possession of good & great things that bring
happiness to life but it’s also the ability of learning &
digesting to enjoy what comes to me. So far it has made me think &
I do believe that happiness is not only an attitude alone of this
world to my life.
This
world’s life use to appear as a mixture of seasons which consists
upon tear drops, laughter, pleasure & pain to me. Just like the
same bunch of feelings & emotions which has been here in the
world since its beginning. Through the most hardest & difficult
times through the past days, I always use to remember that there
never even existed a cloud that the hot sun couldn’t shine through
its rays. Maybe I don’t have my own research through this claim.
Surely everyone living in the world has burdens in life, it's not
only me you or us with the burdens of life. It’s one of the most
important opponents which helped & inspired my life through the
past days. But
still
I don’ fully feel the calmness from the fear, hesitation &
shyness which my life always use to bring through different occasions
& times while facing some wars of this world since my childhood.
To be honest it’s regretful to say that it still remains as a
challenge & a burden to me in my life. So far in the past days of
my life I’ve experienced, felt & even witnessed fear as an
element of my mind’s destruction which somehow made me emotionally
& psychologically weak. Here I want to mark that am not claiming
that am mentally sick or mad but I want everyone to understand that
it’s my attitude. Every human in this world is a different person
with a different attitude likewise I want everyone to accept that I
can’t be someone who I’m not or someone else. As I’ve always
been expressing in my blog, I
want to be me while supporting the others for who they are. Because I
do believe that nobody can play my role better than me & this
same reality appears with the others even.
Seriously isn’t fear truly an element for a human’s destruction?
I really feel a great relief to express & share all my readers
around the world about this for the first time in my life so openly in my blog as my first article at my 23rd
birthday. It is said that nobody can live a challenge free life here
in the world as the life of this world itself appears as a test for
humans. As I’m facing the life with my new age, my health appears
to be in a critical condition. I’ve been consulting doctors of IGM
hospital several times since the last quarter of the year 2012
regarding several health problems. 5th
October 2012, a Saturday’s midnight brought me to know that my BP
or Blood pressure is not at the perfect rate. That night I knew that
BP between 140/90 mmHg is not defined as normal & the doctor
clarified me that most of the health issues that I was facing through
the year was the result of my high BP. Further, another medical lab
report indicates that my cholesterol level is high. Most people even
the doctor who consulted me got shocked when they knew about a young
guy who’s got high BP. Casualty doctor at IGM hospital advised me
not to use foods which contain oil, fats and more sodium. Most use to
say this is “really serious” at this age. Anyways I have started
to take the applicable preventive measures at the spot which the
doctor has advised me. But to be honest I have suffered much great
pain through these health issues in the past year, especially the
pain which arose newly in the nerves of my legs and arm. May god
help me reduce my BP and cholesterol with my efforts giving me a
healthy life? As I’m starting to come up with my new age, my
financial status too remains as one of my serious concerned burden. I
mean this to mention about my cash debts to others & my poor
savings. I‘ve got quiet great debt which I aim to settle by the mid
of next year. But the expenses which I use to spend for my family &
the high rising inflation rates is the biggest obstacle for me to
settle this debt in order to start my deposits to my own savings
account at BML. The main reason for my high debts lies due to my
first trip to India at this year. Current condition of my debts has
forced me to think seriously to live a life with what I’ve got,
rather than living a “debt life” which shows a nice view from the
outer side. I’m not fully considering myself to this type but to be
honest, a part of me still is that. Believe me, no more this game
again as this is not a sustainable wise way to live a person’s
life. As a remarkable point I would like to note the fact that I
really do love to study while my aim is at least to be a diploma
holder. But everything seems to be money these days. It’s just like
that you are nothing without money. I mean in order to achieve a
diploma even I’ve to pay something like more than 36,000 Maldivian
Rufiyaa. This is equal to 2335 US dollars. It’s not possible at the
condition for a middle class guy like me to spend this much on my
studies as a salaried guy, spending for my family expenses with my
own needs. The truth is that I’m not working in a professional type
high salaried post job like the other “so called” happy and
wealthy youths. Anyways I’ve got plans to request financial aid or
loan from the rich or tycoons of this country even though it’s a
difficult path to go through. Still for me, requesting a loan from
anyone at this moment is just “impossible”. There goes the fewer
points that I‘d like to express in this article regarding my 23rd
birthday.
In
the conclusion I’d like to thank everyone who loves me. I mean
those who love & care this normal “Adam”.
Surely love is something which I always urge for & want to gain
in “in-depth” at my life. Thank you for everyone who saw me from
an “eye
of sympathy”
wishing to treat me kind until this 23rd
birthday. A special “thank you” goes for my god. I always have
the faith that he is always with me never letting me go, making me
feel that even though my closest personals leave me, he’s always
with me even though my eyes cannot see him. I hope that god will keep
on protecting me from all harm & danger on the path for me with
this birthday, as he’s always been providing me his refuge. Oh
yes, I haven’t forgot about you guys. I have a big “thank you”
for all you guys around the globe who has been reading &
examining the articles which am posting in this blog. Surely there
remains no reason to operate a personal blog of mine if you guys are
not reading my views. So thanks for all my readers from the seven
continents of the world for the great contribution to this blog. With
my 23rd
age I hope that new readers would join the readership of my blog
contributing their creative comments upon my published articles in
order for me to present improvement in my articles day by day. I hope
god will fulfill my hopes, dreams & wishes with this birthday
enlightening me through success of life with brighter future
endeavors which consists upon “freedom from fear” at its maximum.
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