Day before yesterday 2nd May 2008 was one of the days in my life which I went on worrying all day. It was like a storm which I was trapped in when I was trying to prove me as innocence. Different people have different thinking’s of different ways of life attitudes. And as a single human I do respect the way others believe even though I don’t act as that way.
The story is here. I was chatting from mig33 to one of my friends at the evening time. I had a sign of someone chatting me other than him. So I quickly scrolled the one of my mobile’s button to the right side and I was shocked and surprised happily to see the id which had sent me a message. Yes of course it was my friend rishan. He was known as a good friend through his mig33 id. I got shocked from the message he sent to me through online chatting. He said “Ur liar”. I even can’t believe that it was rishan saying that to me. I was hoping to ask how he was doing because I met him after many days through online. I was hoping that he would treat me very kind as a friend will treat to a friend which he has not met for a long time. But everything went the way opposite which I even never thought of. With a sudden shock I asked rishan to explain me what has happened. I asked him “what” and “why”? I was so thirsty to know the exact reason he referred as a liar to me. To my surprise he asked me “who is dhifm95.2”? I knew who that was but that was not me so I was wondering whether anything wrong had gone with that id and rishan. Most of all I was surprised and question rose in my heart how rishan knew about that id. But instead of telling rishan about that id, I told rishan a lie “for the first time” in our friendship. And rishan did not believe me. He told me that I knew it and I repeatedly asked him what has happened and to tell it clearly to me. I was nervous because I told him a lie for the first time. I even blamed my self for that. But even though I told him a lie, I was innocent and even god knows that. I started to explain rishan the situation. I told him that I only have one id and that is the one and only id of mine known as “adamington”. To be honest adamington is the only id I have. My yahoo id is adamington07. My hotmail id includes adamington. My Gmail id includes adamington. My MySpace id includes adamington. My face book account includes adamington. My YouTube account includes adamington. Most of all even that day at the mig33 I was chatting rishan from adamington id. So I asked even my own self whether I am a liar. After I told rishan all these things he told me another stressful sentence which led me to break out the lie and forced me to prove my innocence in front of my first online friend. He said “You met someone from this the id dhifm95.2”. When he told me that I went speechless and again repeated a lie to defeat my friendship. I was in fear of loosing his friendship. So I said “I didn’t”. And again he ignored me and told “u met”. Also he told that a very reliable friend and a friend who is he can trust so much told him that I met him. But I told him a lie again and ignored in fear of loosing his friendship. At last rishan said to me “I don’t want to talk to you”. I asked rishan hopelessly “why”? He again told me “just don’t want to talk to you anymore”. And he got offline from mig33. I don’t know how I felt. I can’t wait anymore to prove my innocence. Quickly I went to the room and checked his mobile number from a piece of paper which I wrote it and started to type a sms to him. In my first sms I asked rishan “What happen rishan, tell me clearly”? But despite of waiting for some few minutes I didn’t get any reply from him. So I typed the second sms. This time I aimed to tell rishan the truth in which he was suspecting me in a wrong way. I was sure I can’t tell rishan everything in a single sms or few sms. So I typed the truth somehow in someway which my mind knew that will at least make him understand something of my innocence. I typed “Ok rishan. I don’t want to tell you any lies for I have shared you many things. Yes bro I met from that id for one. “ And then in the same sms I started to explain him the situation somehow by stating “That is when one day my friend rameez use to chat that one so much and I knew that that he gave that person my number that’s why I got online from his id and I met that one to see who that was. That’s the truth and god knows that I didn’t do any thing badly with him. I am sorry for telling you a lie in fear of loosing your friendship. I don’t want to keep on telling lies to hide one lie. Hope u will believe me. “After typing this sms I rushed and forwarded the sms to him. And I was waiting for his prompt response in return. For my surprise my mobile received a sms after few minutes. Of course I don’t know how I felt. It really gave me a smile of hope. Surely the sms was from rishan and in he stated that “Ok talk you about that later”. So I was thirsty for his call and to destroy the lies and relieve the real truth in front of him.
When it was night time I texted rishan a sms stating that I am going to put my mobile for charging so I might not be able to answer his call if he calls me at a time when my mobile is charging. And asked him to tell me when he would call me. After sending this sms I waited to receive a sms from him. But when a while passed without receiving any reply from him I started to text him another sms stating to tell me what sin I did and whether he is still angry with me. But I didn’t receive any reply from rishan. So I sended different 12 sms to him regarding the matter. I was only hoping rishan to call me at least and listen to what I have to say even though he does not believe what I use to say. Truly, in every case of misunderstanding it’s very wise to hear the sights and sounds of both parties otherwise when the time passes there wont be anything left except tears and sadness or grief. I was so sad all night thinking about the matter. Wondering what had gone wrong? Asking my own self whether I am a “liar” as my friend rishan stated to me. After all this drama was played only because of my office friends. Ya! They always use to play tricks on each other by fooling others or just giving tricks to others through different ways and different procedures so somehow I got involved at this game of their because they even fool me. Anyway I am always a guy different in my professional life and personnel life. Those two lives are very different for me. I use to be a fun making and silly guy even in the days which I was at school even though I didn’t tell rishan. My classmates will still know what and what I use to do and how I get involved in the fun making at the school as well as the class room. But this does not mean I am like this in front of everyone. I only have fun, act fun and am funny with the guys I know better and understand what fun and silliness is. But poor I, what had happen to me. Rishan is suspecting me in a very wrong meaning. Even this matter is one of the games of things which I stated just before.
Anyway I don’t want to write up that story in my blog and make this blog a mess with all those. I know I am innocent and that was only an accident. So despite of knowing the truth my duty is only to make others listen to me. But if others are not willing to hear or understand me, I will leave it. I have performed my duty. Thinking and thoughts as well as other’s beliefs are not a part which I should be concerned. Every human being has a different way of expressing their thoughts and each human is totally differed from one another. I myself know the truth and my god knows, so that’s enough for me. I trust my god Allah. I am whoever I am till now only because of his mercy. So I was praying for Allah to make everything ok by proving me as innocence. So I was glad and happy to receive a sms at the next day from rishan. In that sms he stated that”Hei I’m sick that’s why I can’t talk easily. You can’t tell me everything by sms.” Yes of course even I was not willing to tell him everything by sms. I was willing him to call me at least and to hear what I have to say. I am not telling that I am a totally pure soul without telling any lies. But one thing I am sure of and that is except that day, which ever story I told rishan previous days by chatting and by phone conversation was all truth and my god will know it.
That’s how friends are. Of course some friends somehow changes according to the time and generation. Som changes due accidents and incidents. Somehow I don’t know why but I really got very sad that day. I felt somehow that I am loosing a precious friend. It made me worry and think about that matter all day and night. But Allah never punishes his slaves in innocence so I am waiting for a day which rishan will call me. I am waiting for a day which I can tell rishan the true whole story. I am waiting for that which rishan will remove that bad misunderstanding from his mind. I am waiting for the day rishan will know that I am innocent. And I am waiting for the day rishan will hear my cry of innocence. Even though nobody is there to help me my god will always assist me. And I will ask no others assistance in this matter except the true god Allah. May Allah help me through this exam and help me to prove the cry of innocence.
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